life and illusion

It seems that on days when I find myself in situations that I find of questionable value and dubious situations I seem to go from one extreme or the other.     I ask myself why I’m I putting up with this situation or something seems hopeless and not worth the energy required to hold it together. And then some point later I seem to have small revelations..

I don’t call it god or universe on my higher self. Just little streams or thoughts that seem to pop up and point out the obvious.

This life we live isn’t ultimately real, its an illusion or physical manifestation designed  to create experiences and a response on a higher level.

I sometimes forget this, and its also obvious that some people will never have this kind of realization, but when it does happen I find myself feeling lighter and happier.


The world we live in is ugly and beautiful and everything in between, better than anything Disney could create and in a fashion that keeps us heavily immersed in its complications and pettiness .

It just takes some moment of silence and reflection to realize that its just really just a trip or ride.







The Return of Winter

Sitting here at the local coffee spot and thinking about the cold weather that has returned temporally to the Midwest. I’m certainly no fan of the winters here, they’re too long and can get just a bit harsh, especially after the holidays when one has nothing to look forward to until spring.

There’s always an upside to every situation and I think most people will be thinking of a cold day like this when in the middle of July and sweating away at the job or in the back yard.

I’ll take my change of seasons and everything that comes with it  including the harsh weather and sunless days.


At least in moderation.

Feeling the call

This winter was an interesting experience. I spent it working in the employment of another organization and having others directing me during my work day.

I feel this was a wonderful thing to happen as I was going through severe burn out and needed a change to recuperate and focus and what new course I should plot in life.

After several months of consideration and reflecting I’ve decided to return to self employment… what and the where is an unknown, but I’m in the process of gathering information to decide what to do.

It’s really amazing how many great resources and support groups are available for the person who seeks it out and with being in a new year I’m looking forward to meeting new people and making new friendships.

Returning from beyond

Well… so we’re into February and I haven’t posted since late last year. There are many reasons for this, priorities and other demands on my time. In reality it’s also a touch of laziness.

But now that we are in the first half of the new year I’ve returned from my self exile to post again. I won’t have anything to post of any real interest today, just this proclamation that I have returned. Echo anyone?

A lot has happened, the worst winter in along time for most. The economy is still somewhat lethargic still looking for its own footing and has yet to find parcel to do just that.


I hope the few that have read any of my posts enjoyed a good holiday and smooth new year and that life is revealing its best to you.


I will be back to post at least once or twice per week if not more.


Thank you.